A touch of Sweetness

Sunday, January 07, 2007

Why must this happen unto me again?? What did I do to offend her that she has to backstab me?? Did I make the wrong choice by joining them at the first place?? Thinking church work is something good but why is it that there is so much trouble?? Why do I have to take all these trouble when others have a carefree life there?? I hate it alot!! I'm only 18!! I'm not 28.. I can't even understand why people are like that..And they have to do this to me. Why must I be exposed in this way?? Why it happens in church?? Why can't everyone stay happy with one another and not find fault with each other??
Thinking everything will go on well for me but end up it was all a dream!! For all the months I was with them was all a dream.Why must they wake me up from my dream?? Why must I face reality??I really hate this!! Why does she want me dead?? Hoping that as time goes by we can become friends but she don't even want to say hi. She wants me dead.. All because of jealousy!!She is 20 over years old and not 18 19.. Why can't she let go of me!! Is it my fault that I was close to Aunty?? I can't stand it anymore!!
Adults are the cause of it that I am suffering all these stuff.Aunty does not want to talk to me at all.I do not even know if she will still continue with my piano lessons.Everyday I have been hoping she will sms me to ask about lessons but everyday is a disappointment.I really enjoy her lessons, being with her.She will always make me laugh no matter what happens.Because of her i had the chance to continue with my piano studies.Becasue of her I had the chance to play during mass.becasue of her I am more determinded to achive what I want to be. But why is it that GOD has to take her out of my life?? WHy is it thta things happen so fast that I can't even catch up?? Who can answer my questions?? Who can save me from all these miseryy?? I really do not know.. I'm really really tired that I do not want to continue living. There is no hope to what ever I'm doing. There is no peace among friends. I really hate it alot!!

-geri :) ;