A touch of Sweetness

Friday, May 11, 2007

The more u know your friends, u get to understand them better in time to come. However on the other hand, the more u know them the more complicating things get and u will not know what they are thinking. I wish I could believe that all the past incidents and misunderstands are kept in the dark from her and that she does not know anything that had happened. But I do not know what will the situation be if the things I believe is not the truth. Will things be the way as I thought? Was everything and every movement planed by _______ herself in order to get me out of the game so that she can always be the sole winner? Do all theses only happen in shows and dramas or does it really happen in reality too? Was the message sent by ________? Did she even give the letter to AE? Did she tell Nana to take over me in the name of AE? I really hope all these questions in my heart are the truth and one day AE will soon find out and things will turn out the way it is suppose to be. Does AL knows something about ________ too? When I cried on the day of x’mas eve, she asked if anyone told me anything. I really wonder what that question meant. One important thing she told me was to forgive and forget. As what it states in the song. If one day I really come to realize that what I thought was true will I be able to forgive her and forget everything? Sometimes I really understands what she feels but does she have to go to the stage of backstabbing and getting jealous over small matters? If one day we become friends again will it be the same as the last time when I first met her? I will try to forget what she had done but the scars on my hand are reminders of what had happened. Will scars fade with time?

Well hope fate will bring us back to where we first started. It was at least half a yr when I last talked to her. It was at least 5 months ago when I met her for the last time. And it was 6 months ago where she last gave me piano lessons and played mind games. Till then I never saw her online at night where she will always play ‘Audition’. I always thought she had blocked me from seeing her however it was not that I thought. I really wonder how her health is now. Is she as happy and cheery as last time? Hope her illness did not affect her much. May GOD bless her with good health always and let her stay happy the way she was. Hope one day when I see her, she will be alright.

So near yet so far. For a long time I have been waiting for the day to see AE, part time mummy and Nana. And mum saw part time mummy at the food court. She was just a few meters away from me but fate did not seem to be with us. Haiz. When will the very day be? Well maybe I should believe that whatever is meant to be yours will be yours no matter what happens during the transaction. It is just a matter of time before the truth comes to light and whatever is yours will be beside you. Hope this does not take too long as I will not be able to endure till the end.

-geri :) ;