A touch of Sweetness

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

I have no idea what happened. All of a sudden I just sms Aunty Esther to ask if she was free to talk to me. She said she was so i decided to call her instead. And i'm glad that i sms her. She was playing game before leaving for work. She asked why I called. So I told her that I'm at some scary place, and the rest were playing computer games except for me. She told me to learn how to play some games if not will become suaku. LOL!! We also talked about choir stuff. She asked me why I disappeared. I told her that I want to go back but I'm scared. She told me not to think of the past, and think about what I really want that can make me happy. Think about it before making any decision. Pray for guidiance. I think this time I really have to think carefully if i should go back to the choir before making any decision. Haiz. Aunty Esther called me toufu. =( I guess she's right. I'm not tough enough, i do not dare to speak up and i do not have confidence in myself. Haiz. She says she will call me toufu until i improve. haha. And there is one thing which i found out. Nana took over me is not because of mum resign from the choir. But is because Aunty Esther find that i have not enough confidence with myself. And for so long i thought that it was becasue of what had happened.. HAIZ..
It was a very long time since we last chat like this. I'm really glad that I called her. If not i will not even start to forget about the past and think about what to do the next step.
If i really make the finally decision how am i going to tell mum about it? haiz. GOD guide me through this.

-geri :) ;